When I start feeling anxious and worried I realize that I am focusing too much on the future.
Lately I have been struggling with the reality that I might not have the opportunity to have my own children. I have also been dating a lot and there is nothing happening for me in that department either.
To be honest one of my biggest fears is growing old alone. Then I think of the many women who spent many years alone at the end of their life. Including my grandmother (my grandfather died 11 years before her).
Fear and faith seem to not be able to be felt at the exact same time. Yet fear can make my faith grow quickly because I have to give my fears away and press forward in faith.
Who knows what the future holds so there's no reason to put too much worrying and energy into it other than planning.
I might die tomorrow or live till I am 90 but all I really have is today.
I choose to continue to work on living in the now and trust in God!
It is hard when the plans we have don't come to pass. But the Lord has a great plan for you, Blessed Child. It will be wonderful! Hold on to that thought!
ReplyDeleteThank you Stacey A. It is usually exactly the moment we let go that the blessings arrive. It's like a trust fall with God as the person who catches us.
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