True Happiness
Service is
important to me because as I have healed and learned to be honest with myself
and others, learned to trust in God, and was finally completely 100% honest
with myself, God and confessed of all my sins and past. I was able, truly able,
to have a change of heart where my focus was not on self-seeking and temporal
things but rather on an eternal view and on the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I had
to humble myself and learn about my character weaknesses and the possibility
and process of making my weakness into strengths. One of the first steps of
being humble was to seek out those people I had harmed in my past and
apologize, make my amends, and restitution. Once I had cleaned up my past I
started to live my life with daily accountability by maintaining my change of
heart through daily self-appraisal and immediate repentance. Also, relying on
Heavenly Father to help me with any feeling that took me away from peace.
I had to learn to counsel with the Lord every
day and learned to do the Lords will and all that I do. I had to learn how to
be still and receive personal inspiration and revelation from the Holy Ghost.
Which I found worked best if I continued to live the commandments, and do the
things daily that kept the Spirit near me. Daily scripture study, prayer throughout
the day, daily self- appraisal, turning
my will over to God daily, and every night
thanking him for the opportunity to return to the Gospel and being
forgiven for the things I have done wrong and my weakness. Also, expressing
gratitude for continuing to fortify me and helping me become the woman and
daughter of God that he always knew I could be. Through doing all these things
I have learned truly how to live the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I will never
forget how important the atonement of Jesus Christ is for me and all the
children of Heavenly Father.
I know with
all my heart after I have learned and gone through so much and worked so hard
to come unto Him that the final and ongoing thing I must do is serve others.
God has blessed me with an amazing gift of being able to relate and create
trust with almost anyone. I love helping and loving people that have a hard
time loving themselves, and especially sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I
want to shout from the rooftops come unto Jesus Christ because he truly is the
Prince of Peace. The atonement will allow you to love yourself and others
again. The Gospel will teach you how to live a life that is truly fulfilling
and brings true happiness. I was so sad, so lost, and hopeless. Now I am full
of love, hope, and I found myself through the sacrifice and service of
others. For that I am eternally
grateful. Because I am so grateful I will continue to serve others as Jesus
Christ and Heavenly Father would have me do. I will continue to teach others
about the gospel through my example and if needed through my words.
At the
beginning of these steps I had been sober for a while and I was unsure of what
would happen as I worked through these steps. Now as I look back I am such a
different woman. I am true believer, I have been healed and strengthened
through the atonement. I have learned how to study to the scriptures and love
and cherish them. I am a worthy member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter
Day Saints. I have learned how to live life on life’s terms and one day at a
time. Most importantly I am close with all my family including my Heavenly
Father. Each and every day I look forward to the moments I have on my knees to
share with both Jesus and Heavenly Father how my day went, and struggles I might
have, and express how grateful for everything.
When I was
young every time I made a wish I made the same wish until I was in my twenties.
In my twenties one day I just stopped wishing because I gave up on life and on
myself. The wish I wished for all those years “I wish I can be happy”. I no
longer need to wish because through this process, the gospel, the atonement,
prayers, love, and sacrifice from others, my dedications and obedience to the
gospel I can truly say “I am happy”. For that my heart is full of joy and
gratitude. Now to continue on in faith and enjoy life ONE DAY AT A TIME.
~Blessed Child
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